I am not cut out for this sort of site.

I've been a member for five years now and have nothing to really show for it. I like the place. I think it is a great idea for people who need encouragement and find inspiration in comments or some sense of accomplishment in the number of views they receive, it is even a fine place to come and see what your favorite professionals draw in their free time.

At it's core, however, it is a social networking site. I've never really liked those, not a very social person. I use Facebook to prove to family that I am not dead and I had a Livejournal once when I was younger and more into weepy poetry, but that is about it.

What I have found here are links to some incredible webcomics and beautiful art to look at, which is fine in it's own right, but not really what I came here for.

I think this site is killing my desire to draw. Too much pressure in the number of views and comments and favorites, not enough people just appreciating the work. Not enough comments of, "I know how you feel.". Hell, not enough images out there of actual emotion that's not a blatant image of someones character screaming it out.

Everything in my gallery is something I drew for the sole purpose of drawing something. None of it has meaning. Art should have meaning. So I'm going to try to find mine again. I can't do that here, so I'm leaving. Everything will stay where it is but there will be nothing new. I just wanted to post this so that the few people who actually know me here will not fill my main page comments with nonsensical phrases that are really just ways of asking where I went. I went away. That is where I went.